1. The Proposal Nobody Wanted

Fri, 17 Jul 2026 14:54:57 +0000

The afternoon sunlight entered Anagha's apartment without asking permission. It spread lazily across the wooden floor, climbed over a stack of unread books, paused on a half-finished jigsaw puzzle that had occupied her coffee table for three weeks, and finally settled on the balcony where she sat with a mug of coffee that had long gone cold. Below her, Mumbai refused to slow down. Cars argued with one another. Vendors negotiated. Children chased a punctured football. Somewhere, a pressure cooker whistled. The city possessed a strange talent for convincing everyone that they were late for something. Anagha wasn't. She had nowhere to be. Nothing waiting for her. No one waiting either. She found comfort in that. People often mistook solitude for loneliness. She never bothered correcting them. They wouldn't understand that silence could also be freedom. Her phone vibrated. She watched it ring twice before answering. "Hello." Her mother's voice. "When are you coming home?" "This evening." "Come early." "Why?" "We need to discuss something." "What?" "We'll talk when you get here." The call ended. No explanation. No urgency. Only that familiar parental tone which meant the decision had already been made somewhere else. By evening, the Adhikari residence smelled of cardamom tea and expectation. Her father sat with the newspaper folded neatly beside him. Her mother adjusted cushions that didn't need adjusting. Neither looked nervous. They looked prepared. That worried Anagha more. She placed her handbag on the sofa. "What happened?" Her father smiled. "We've received a proposal." Silence. Her mother continued before she could respond. "The family is wonderful." "The boy is highly educated." "CEO." "Old-money family." "No bad habits." "Cultured." "Mature." They listed achievements the way estate agents listed amenities. Sea-facing bungalow. Business empire. Foreign education. Respectable surname. Not once did they describe him as a person. Only as an investment. Anagha sighed. "I told you I wasn't interested." Her mother looked almost disappointed. "You've been saying that since you were twenty-four." "I still mean it." "You'll be thirty." "So?" "So life doesn't wait." Neither, she wanted to say, did regret. Instead she remained quiet. That night she stood on the balcony outside her childhood bedroom. The city lights looked less like stars and more like reminders. People were always moving somewhere. Marrying. Having children. Buying homes. Building futures. She had built a perfectly satisfying life without following any of those instructions. She had her own income. Her own apartment. Her own routines. No permission required. No explanations necessary. Marriage threatened all of that. Not because husbands were necessarily controlling. Because marriage invited expectations. Expectations multiplied. Then quietly became obligations. She didn't fear companionship. She feared disappearing inside it. What if nothing terrible happens? What if he's kind? Respectful. Responsible. Would that make saying no harder? People always prepare women for abusive marriages. No one prepares them for ordinary ones they never wanted. Two days later, another conversation began over breakfast. Her father placed a photograph beside her plate. "This is Advait Deshmukh." She looked. Well-tailored suit. Calm expression. Nothing remarkable. Nothing memorable either. He looked like someone who had never raised his voice. Or lowered it. "What do you think?" "I think it's a photograph." Her mother frowned. "At least meet him." "I don't want to." "Why?" She searched for an answer worthy of understanding. Couldn't find one. Because the truth sounded childish. Because I like my life. Because I don't want another one. Because choosing no one feels more honest than choosing someone simply because the calendar says it's time. Instead she shrugged. "I just don't." Her father leaned back. "You don't have to marry him." Relief arrived too early. "We're only asking you to meet him." There it was. The oldest negotiation in every arranged marriage. One meeting. Then another. Then families became hopeful. Hope became pressure. Pressure became compromise. Compromise became vows. Across the city, another conversation ended almost before it began. Advait Deshmukh entered the dining room precisely at eight. His mother poured tea. His father folded the business section of the newspaper. "We've found someone." Advait nodded. "Okay." His mother waited. Nothing followed. "Anything else?" "No." His father cleared his throat. "You'd like to know about her?" "If you want to tell me." "Would you like to meet her?" "If that's required." His mother smiled weakly. "It usually is." "Then I'll meet her." No curiosity. No resistance. No questions. Not her name. Not her profession. Not even when. The conversation ended because there was nowhere else for it to go. His mother watched him leave. Sometimes she wondered whether silence could be inherited. Advait's life functioned with mechanical precision. Morning walk. Breakfast. Office. Meetings. Reports. Dinner. Reading. Sleep. Repeat. Employees admired him. Directors trusted him. Investors respected him. Nobody had ever called him difficult. Nobody had ever called him interesting either. He simply existed with remarkable efficiency. Like a clock that never lost a second. Sunday arrived with surprisingly pleasant weather. The meeting was arranged at a café overlooking Marine Drive. Neutral ground. Respectable. Public enough to reassure families. Private enough to imagine possibility. Anagha arrived first. She chose a table near the window. Outside, waves struck the promenade with repetitive patience. Five minutes later, Advait entered. He spotted her immediately. Walked over. "Anagha?" "Yes." "I'm Advait." "I know." He sat. A waiter appeared. "What would you like?" "Black coffee," Anagha said. "The same," Advait replied. Silence settled between them before the waiter had even left. She decided someone had to begin. "So..." "Yes." "What keeps you busy outside work?" He considered. "I read." "What do you read?" "Books." She almost smiled. "What kind of books?" "Different kinds." Another pause. She tried again. "Do you enjoy travelling?" "It's nice." "Where was your last trip?" "Singapore." "For work?" "Yes." "Did you see the city?" "A little." "How was it?" "It was clean." Silence. Outside, waves crashed louder than either of them. She wondered if this was nervousness. People became awkward during arranged-marriage meetings. Perhaps he'd relax. "So... what made you agree to meet me?" "My parents asked." "You didn't have an opinion?" "I didn't think about it." "What if you didn't like me?" He looked genuinely puzzled. "I've only just met you." For the first time, she couldn't tell whether the answer was profound or empty. She changed direction. "What are you looking for in a partner?" He looked at the table. Thought for several seconds. "I don't know." "You've never thought about marriage?" "No." "Then why agree?" "It seemed reasonable." Reasonable. Not exciting. Not hopeful. Not meaningful. Reasonable. The word sat between them like a closed door. Forty-five minutes passed. Neither rude. Neither warm. The conversation never collapsed. It simply never took flight. When the bill arrived, Advait reached for it. "I'll pay." "You don't have to." "I don't mind." She let him. They walked outside together. Cars moved endlessly along Marine Drive. People laughed. Couples argued. Teenagers took photographs. Life seemed louder around them than between them. He looked toward the sea. "It might rain." She followed his gaze. "Maybe." Another pause. Then— "It was nice meeting you." "You too." They walked in opposite directions. Neither turned back. That evening, both families waited eagerly. Anagha's mother almost bounced with anticipation. "So?" Anagha removed her earrings. "He seems... quiet." "Quiet is good." "I suppose." "Did you dislike him?" She thought carefully. "No." "Did you like him?" Another long pause. "I don't know him." Her mother smiled as though that were a promising answer. Meanwhile, in Malabar Hill— Advait's mother asked the same question. "How was she?" "She was polite." "Did you like her?" "I don't know." "Would you meet her again?" "If that's what's next." His mother laughed with relief. "He didn't say no," she told her husband later. "I think that's the closest we'll get to enthusiasm." His father nodded. "Good enough." Late that night, Anagha lay awake in her apartment. She replayed the meeting. Not because it had gone badly. Because nothing had happened. No spark. No discomfort. No surprise. Just... stillness. A strange thought crossed her mind. She couldn't remember a single question Advait had asked her. Not one. The realization lingered longer than she expected. Outside, Mumbai glittered against the darkness. Inside, she stared at the ceiling. Some stories begin with fireworks. Some begin with accidents. Some begin with love. She did not yet know that hers had begun with the absence of all three.